I like to write. I’ve been writing this blog for a little over four years and it has gone through a few different iterations. I used it as a space to write about my life and my kids, I used it as an accountability tool to track my weight loss through a journey that resulted in me losing 25lbs. As my kids started getting older I stopped writing specific stories about them and have shifted to writing about fatherhood in general. I started writing guides for other dads to help them build skills and less content that was related to current affairs.
Over the past six months I have dropped from writing 3-4 posts a week to 2-3 posts per month. Some of that was intentional. I was trying to do too much last year. I was spending a lot of time in front of the computer and not a lot of time with my family. I was trying to boost my audience to make my blog more appealing to PR firms and brands that might be willing to pay me to write content about their products and experiences. It worked to a certain extent. This year I have a new job that pays better and I am as driven to write for money.
All of the things, all of the time
It has also been really challenging to deal with everything coming out of the US since Trump was inaugurated. There are too many things. Everyday I want to react to whatever ridiculousness comes out of his mouth or tweets or generally out of the conservative political space south of the border. I didn’t start this blog to write about current affairs exclusively. It has been a challenge not to turn it into that kind of space over the past six months.
Challenges of Fatherhood
On the fatherhood front I have been working through some challenges. I have written here and there about my strong-willed middle daughter. I am not going to go into more detail here, except to say that she challenges me to be a better dad and it has been and continues to be emotionally and psychologically exhausting. My three year old still isn’t sleeping through the night consistently so my partner and I spend a lot of time functioning in a sleep-deprived fog.
I also realized recently that part of my fog has been related to processing my dad’s death last summer. I hadn’t realized the impact his death had on me and was both sleep-walking though my days and turtling to hide from interactions with other people, including my partner and kids.
So Much Sanding
On the positive side of things, my woodworking business has been very busy and consuming more time this year. I am just entering into my busy season and I have already almost doubled my revenue compared to last year. That has meant that I am spending more time sanding wood than typing on a keyboard.
The Challenge of Writing
All of these things have meant that I am writing less and less and that when I do decide to write something it takes longer and longer to actually do the writing because I am out of practice.
As I said at the start, I like to write. I like the ideas the act of writing both stimulates and helps to clarify. I enjoy stringing words together and crafting sentences and meaning. I like to challenge myself to write in different styles.
Warming Up My Keyboard
I need to get over the hump of feeling like everything is too big to write about and get myself back into the practice and habit of writing. For the next 30 days or so I am going to write and publish a post every day. some posts will be current affairs, some will be about fatherhood, some about my kids and kids in general and some will be product reviews/ experiences. So for those of you whom are subscribed to the blog and get my posts in your inbox, sorry about filling your inbox for the next month. For the rest of you, thanks for reading and following along. As always I welcome your feedback and opinions.